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September 2024 Life Update
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well. life just got even sucky.
my full-time job laid me off yesterday (my official last day was the Aug 30th, but layoff was for Aug 31st). im already negative in my bank account, i have lots of bills to pay, and i just am so stressed.
heres a simple run-down of irl:
- there have been issues with my grandmother lately that is making her require a lot of care (probably soon to be 24/7 care);
- my full-time job laid me off;
- bills are piling up;
- Netro Corporation and all my hard-work is at risk.
to give a overview of what my bills look like (note that credit cards and some others are listed as total balance):
- Car payment: $525.72/mo
- Car insurance: $575/mo
- Credit Card 1: $1,123.28 (minimum payment: $50)
- Credit Card 2: $1,747.54 (minimum payment: $45)
- Credit Card 3: $877.00 (minimum payment: $40)
- Affirm: $4,795.08 (minimum payment: $418.66 this month)
- Loan 1: $190.00/mo
- Loan 2: $103.00/mo
- Sunbit: $162.03/mo (dealing with my car)
- Phone: $257.23/mo
- Internet: $145.00/mo
(for context, most of these bills are a result of family-needs, not my own. in most cases, i do not get a chance to even treat myself out. only recently i was able to build myself a pc, for example)
in total, i need to pay at the bare minimum $2.5k this month (and mostly every month).
i cant get rid of any of this. im stuck with all of this.
i already applied for unemployment insurance, since i was laid off; waiting to hear back from claim.
i tried applying for many jobs regarding my field, but they all turn me down. not to mention the lack of the job types in my area. mostly in my area, its all seasonal & part-time stuff, which i need full-time. no one wants to try an "entry-level" like me anyway (well, thats what everyone will see me as since i dont have any degrees, certs, or whatever).
im trying to live by the quote i made the other day:
"life can be a challenge that feels like its never in your favor. however, even with life giving you hell, remain strong and always remember you are never alone and are loved."
but life sucks.
and life is hard.
and life makes you face so many challenges.
and life makes you want to give up.
and im sorry.
